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Yesterday I went and saw my family and they all sat me down and it was like some weird meeting. I thought something serious was going on. I thought someone was seriously sick or ill. Something bad had really happened.
But as I was sitting there, they all were looking at me really intensely. And then finally I realized why I was there. They're all telling me that they were so concerned about my weight gain.
That they've got used to me being fat for many years, but now suddenly they've really seen that I've been gaining too much too fast and everyone's just so worried about it.
They were telling me that my health is deteriorating.
And I do agree to a certain extent. I'm not even starved. And I'm making this video and I'm out of breath.
I know I'm a really fat, unhealthy pig. I'm just so addicted. I just can't stop.
I think I am never going to be able to stop stuffing my face and gaining weight. It is all just too addictive. My sister was there, and you all know that my sister is very fit into fitness, and she chimed in and began telling me I was going to be dead by the age of 40. I would not live to see 50. So far, I would never be able to have a family.
They couldn't say boyfriend because I've recently been dating a feeder and he is the one that has really ramped up my weight gain. It's really helped me gain so much so fast.
I think my family are suspicious.
My new partner is really helping with my accelerated weight gain.
Because ever since I was dating that person, I've really put on so much more weight.
But my family are all so skinny, they just don't understand. They just don't understand how addictive it is. I'm addictive. Being a fat pig is. They don't understand, but they just can't stop control. They just don't care about the health implications. They're just too far gone for that.
They, at first, when I was there, they told me they were worried.
Then they tried to factually may look what you're doing to your body. Your body's completely ruined. Your skin is so overstretched. You used to be so skinny, used to be so beautiful. Now look at you. Look what you've done to yourself.
Some of them got a little bit angry as well. And then my mom began to play with me, and she was begging me to lose weight. And if I lost weight, she would send me on holiday. She'd buy me a whole new walldrive clothes. Why do I need skinny clothes? I can wear exactly the same as a skinny person, but with a fat body.
They kept saying to me that I'm outgrowing all my clothes. I used to wear jeans all the time. Now I don't even wear jeans. I know I'm wearing these, but they don't show you no way. They don't do it.
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Yeah, there's no way that these jeans are going to drop over my fat car. And my mom was saying to me, now you just live in elasticated pants, leggings. You don't wear anything nice anymore, no jeans, no fit clothes. And the reason being is because I've outgrown everything. And also because I gave up with jeans because I used to buy so many jeans. And then in a few months, I just outgrow them. So I just thought. I just have to admit to myself, I'm such a fat gardeners pig. I'm just staying all the stretchy thighs.
I just don't understand. I'm just so addicted to fetalism, so addicted to stuffing myself and gaining. I really just can't stop.
Even if it's the thing that ends me [UH] just can't stop.
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Too much of time. I want this to be so much bigger, smaller. I can't imagine anything worse than exercising to lose weight or even getting weight loss surgery because obviously my family have mentioned that because my doctor keeps mentioning my doctors mentioned it for years. So my family mentioned that I've had nightmares about that. I've had actual nightmares where I've got weight loss. Surgery unwillingly. And then it's just completely destroyed and ruined my life because I haven't been able to stop myself because for me stuff in my big fat gut is the thing that turns me almost. The only thing that arouses me stuff in my gut, getting fat or talking about being fat [UM] it's just such a big part of my sexuality. I could never get.
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I do feel bad that my family are worried about me. I do, but I just have to live my life for me, you know. Have to do what makes me happy, and that stuff in my face can get even fatter. It's the only thing I care about. It's the only thing I want. Mm mm.
It's just nothing else that makes me more happy.
So addicted to being a big fat pig. You're never going to stop. You're always going to see me so much bigger and fatter. I need to be a 500 pound fatty already. Can you imagine what my family would say then? I was 500 pounds. I'd never heard the end of it.
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I'm hundred thirty six hundred pound five. It's never going to stop. It's never going to be enough. I'm always going to want more and more and more. Oh, oh.