I draw fetishistic pornography, have a considerably big nsfw twitter account. And what's the problem? I became aroace this Monday and looks like it's until the end of time.
I'm someone you may know, there's like a purple-haired character with skulls for hairclips for her pigtails. She's my OC. If you know me, you know me. And I've been drawing porn for like 2 years at minimum.
But regardless, what happened is this month has been HELL for me. My life literally falling apart in all aspects possible. Most notably my cat died and relationship with one of my dear friends became very rocky for some time. And all of these combined gave me such high stress that last sunday I woke up at night literally shaking. And the next morning, what do you know? I wake up with no sexual nor romantic desire. Looking at boobs? Nothing. Ass? Nope. Genitalia? Nada. I now only get a kick out of vore and adjacent fetishes like stuffing or bbw. And even then it's entirely asexual. I feel something, but horny is gone. Gone completely. And I even went as far as to experiment: I got drunk and started jorking it, and it didn't feel good. I found it annoying more than anything, as a matter of fact. It took me 15 minutes to just get it up, and another 10 to finish. And cumming didn't feel good, it again felt annoying. And it's not E.D.: the very next morning I woke up with wood, but not from libido(obviously) but from wanting to pee. And it isn't desensitization either:I've been through it, and I at least felt something when looking at drawings I would consider absolute peak of pornography. Now? Nothing.
My best guess for what happened is that prolonged high stress and then a sudden spike in it caused my brain to get all messed up and well I ended up asexual after that.I am not the only case for it, of course. In fact I am far from because one of my acquaintances became ace after extremely high stress, too. But honestly what bothers me the most in this situation is how unbelievably ironic it is: a porn artist becomes asexual!
So what's next? IDFK, I will continue to draw vores and fats. I'll have a different direction for it, sure. But I still like what I draw, even if I don't goon.
Oh and this picture in the post? Yeah it's a flarb. It isn't anyhow related to what I'm talking about. I just thought you needed to see a flarb at least once in your life