So I'm a feedee who's met a girl feeder. She's crazy but my kind of crazy, love her to death and we've been going strong for a few years now. She' put on maybe 80lbs on me and it's been quite an adjustment. Like it would come in bursts, I'd put on maybe 10-20lbs in a month, plateau for a few months and then it would creep back on again, so I've been obese for a while but it also simultaneously just blorps on me out of nowhere, and every time I have these bursts there's something new to get used to. >not seeing my own cock when I look down even when bending over >standing or walking for hours simply just sucks hard >reaching my back or ass >getting used to sleeping with neck/chest/collar blubber pushing on me All things I've gotten used to. Sleep apnea sucks but eh, a cpap machine basically helps me ignore that problem. What I'm struggling with now is sex. We still get off but it's very hard for me to perform. She's even fatter than I am, so reaching inside blind is an effort, and frankly my stamina sucks. Now those are fixiable, and I don't even need to lose weight to do that, just hitting the gym for energy and flexibility would help. What I'm REALLY struggling with though is my cock. It's so much more difficult to get hard, stay hard, and not lose it. When my muscles get exhausted from just regular positions, I lose my boner. But sometimes even when I'm horny, It'll just go down. I'll still be aroused in my head and even feel that stirring in my loins but my dick just taps out. I think a part of it is my dick juat doesn't feel anything as much as it used to. Like everything's just a smidge more numb. Perhaps this is a bloodflow problem? Maybe exercise can help me there but I'm worried this is just a fat problem. Like, this feels independant of the fact I also can't touch the base of my shaft nearly as easily anymore. I have to basically lay down and spread my legs like a fat girl trying to let a cock in to reach my deep base, otherwise digging into my fupa to grab the bottom quickley becomes too tiring for both me and my girl. She's even lent me her wand before, and it feels good and fun but kind of same issue, things start to feel a little numb and it just goes down. Honestly it's kind of really cute how buried I am, me and my love get off to how effeminite it looks and sounds to go from having a cock to basically a fat pad burying it inside some crotch hole. Really, a lot of weight gain stuff is super hot on paper but when my fat ass is tired or my muscles feel sore it also just drains my head and makes getting off to it hard. I don't regret getting fat though I feel like I've gone past the stopping point (a lesson for any prospecting gainers out there, set goal weights, if you lossey goosey say "oh Ill just stop when it stops feeling right", you're fucked because once you've gone too far it will both feel like it but also never far enough. Your body has gotten used to your diet (quantity or quality) and you will have to seriously convince yourself to stop to actually maintain or make progress losing.), but it's still fun both conceptually and in practice, but I just wish the practice worked as smooth as it did before I gained. Am I fucked and have an ultimatum (to pull back on my fetish or deal with the weakened numbing) or is there a solution that lets me stay this way and still perform? Also I notice a lack of bhm discussion and personal gaining talk here, so I want to open the floor to anyone else seeking feedback and advice. I sure don't mind sharing more about my morbidly obese experience.