>>74695
First of all, you are using this like porn, and it is porn. Accepting that is the first step. You sound young, and let me just tell you that you can square this fetish and your faith, and that there should be no guilt for having a particularity of your sexuality like this.
Otherwise, yes you have a fetish, and yes, yoh are attracted to fat girls even if you say you arent. Lmbb is fat, she is an obese woman. There is no science to this, your fascination is purely psychosexual, and it is known as feederism. There is no pick and choose and thats ok. Accept yourself for who you are, porn habits are another question entirely.
TLDR: Yes, youre watching it as porn because it is, and you are because you are into feederism, every part, even the fat parts, just with a prference for round bellies. May I ask are you a man or a woman?