I guess this is the right place to post this. After all, it's related to the BBW world, right? I recently found out that the girl I once wanted to approach years ago passed away. Before I got together with my current girlfriend, I used to notice this postal worker who was kind of unique. She always wore nerdy shirts or rock/metal band shirts. And yeah, she was a BBW, almost an SSBBW. She had her own kind of charm, and I often thought it would be nice to just chat with her for a bit because she seemed like an interesting person. But I kept procrastinating. Partly because I was afraid of rejection, partly because I didn't want to bother her while she was at work. Time passed. Even after getting into a relationship, every now and then I would still think it would have been interesting to talk to her. Just casually, you know. A few days ago I found out that last month she was supposed to have a stomach reduction surgery. Something went wrong. The stitches didn't hold and she passed away. Now I feel guilty, and I don't even fully understand why. Would anything have been different if I had been braver? I don't know. I also don't know what her real reasons were for choosing that surgery. She was the same age as my girlfriend, 33. I went to the cemetery. It's the same one where my grandparents are buried. On the wall tomb there were flowers from her parents and her coworkers. For now there's still fresh cement and a photo of her. Next to it there was a Pokémon card and a small maneki-neko statue. I brought her some tulips. I just felt the need to. I think from now on, whenever I go visit my grandparents, I'll stop by and say hello to her too. All of this just to say: it's better to act and maybe make a few mistakes than to do nothing. At least you'll know you tried. It's better to move forward knowing you acted than to live with regret. This whole thing also reminded me how important body positivity is. I don't know why she chose that surgery. But we live in a very superficial society, especially here in Italy, where people are judged based on their weight and appearance. Like they somehow matter less because of it. Goodbye Arianna.