My first experience with this kind of stuff happened when i was around 12 or 13 and i found a shitty article with the title; "What if they hottest Hollywood celebrities were fat", or something like that, and it has a bunch of shitty photoshoped pictures of famous celebrities as fat people. Around the same time i found another article showing before and after pics of cute fat woman, but it wasnt related to any fetish, it was a body shaming thing i guess. Eventually in my search for fat related shit, i found a pic of a very young Plump Princess with her belly covering the keyboard of a laptop (if u guys know the pic, share it pls lmao) and well, that was the first time i jerked off without forcing myself to look at normie porn.
And yeh my mom was fat, and still is, but tbf most woman in my early life were fat including all of my old teachers and my friend's mothers/sisters. I don't leave around most of them anymore tho, i left my home town like 8 years ago, but i like to believe i keep in contact with a lot of people from that time in my life. To be honest even tho there are a lot of elements in my environment that influenced my fetish i don't think my mom and other maternal figures are they answer. I used to be very fat as a teenager, and i know it's weird to say it, but at the time thinking about fat woman whole grabbing my own fat was a way for me to cope with my obesity, although i losed the extra weight when i was around 17 but that coping mechanism stayed with me i guess.
I don't hate the fetish, it's something i don't show to people and Ive managed to hide it from most of my ex partners, but tbh it's not the only fetish i keep to myself lol, and i'm also not that huge of an obsessed porn guy im happy with just watching a fat girl doing hot shit, and if they used to be skinny thats even better, im not a feeder but girls getting fat it's always a hot thing for me. Don't get me wrong, i do love skinny woman too, ive dated petite chicks and i love having sex with them, but if i have the chance to get a fat girl im always gonna take it.