How old are you? How many break ups have you had? This kind of reaction is common with younger less experienced people. I know it well because I used to be this same way, and many of my friends at the time as well. Coincidentally we were all a little bit in the spectrum The best medicine is time, and dating more people

>>86376 I’m a young adult right now, 18 going to be 19 in a couple months. And so far one break up. So, really a younger and inexperienced person like you said. Still starting life and learning adulthood, I do apologize if I sound like a fool.

>>86383 Don't apologize for being earnest and true. This site is a rough environment.

>>86383 Yeah... I wasn't trying to give you shit. I was just saying... This sounds exactly like something I or any of my friends would have written at 18 going on 19. It's entirely natural. This too shall pass. In 10 years you'll barely even remember being 18.

>>86391 Even if you did, I would understand. But you’re right, things come and go and years later I may not remember much. How are you doing though, hope everything is going well for you

>>86384 I have noticed the environment here is not so, welcoming to others. There is much hatred in a lot of people’s hearts on this site. I don’t understand it though, it’s strange to see. But I appreciate your words

Also landed a GF, but she's kinda the one thing keeping me going through a sea of bs. She's thin, but while I typically go for big girls, I find her so hot regardless

>>86419 I’m very glad you still find her hot and attractive, despite being thin. That’s very beautiful I think, I hope you two continue to have that wonderful relationship. The world is very tough and the waters of this sea are rough, but I am very glad things seem to be going well for you

Good Morning everyone, how is everyone today? Any big plans from anyone today or just a chill day? And remember that you are loved and appreciated

Re-connected with the old love who broke my heart after such a long time, finding she only left me because of a little avoidable mis-communication. She chose someone who looked just like me too, who got her pregnant super quickly. She suddenly said she was going to be gone for some little bit, which turned into weeks-I think she's in a dead marriage & he's the controlling type. It sounds like she lives in incredibly depressing life, mostly sleeps all day, isolated, little self-esteem... so I don't feel too upset at her. I know she's at-least safe, not trying to be a "I could fix her" guy. It's confusing while she's putting indirect, but huge hints about still wanting me, but unable to speak directly with the controlling husband. It feels sad to think of how close we were, and how close we still are, but still out of reach. I hope things change for the better.

>>86469 I am so sorry for you and to her, it’s sad that an avoidable miscommunication had happened but we all make mistakes and we’re only human. We aren’t perfect. And I feel bad that she is stuck with someone that’s very controlling, that doesn’t sound like a healthy thing in a relationship, nobody should be controlling anything and it pains me to hear this. I hope the both of you will be okay

>>86471 I appreciate your kindness, thank you friend.

Hey, i'm around your age at 19 and i've never had a relationship, youre doing much better than me in that regard, even if you broke up you still gained experience! Covid isolation really messed me up when i was getting into highschool, discovering bbwchan and coomer.party around that time also led my fat fetish pornography addiction to surge, meaning less time interacting with people and more time masturbating alone. I am slightly autistic which means i am not great with people anyways, but this situation really feeds into social anxiety and falling deeper into the rabbithole of hoarding more and more pornography. I'm sort of just drifting in my thoughts with adhd not getting any shit done, if i don't get into uni next year then my last chance at socializing is pretty much doomed. So tldr, autistic 19 year old, no social life, addicted to fat porn

>>86480 You know... As an almost 40 year old, at the time, it was lame that there were only like 3 pictures of fat women on the entire intentet. But, honestly, seems like we dodged a bullet. Not really possible to get coomer brained from 3 blurry low res images of teighlor on a greeting card from Spensors that was taken on the middle of the aisle in the store with a disposable camera in poor lighting

>>86481 Yeah, unrestricted internet access since age 7, discovering this stuff at the beginning of puberty meaning i have never gotten off to typical porn. Autism turns it into a special interest and obsession, and ADHD keeps distracting into thinking about that obsession.

Experiencing a breakup is honestly genuinely so devastating so I feel with you. In some ways it's like the death of a loved one, but the most compassion you get from people is a thats rough buddy and a pat on the back. It gave me thoughts I wasn't aware I was capable of having, that involved both hurting myself and others. Had no intent to act on these thoughts but it was incredibly scary nevertheless to have them pop up in my head. Luckily these thoughts are long gone. I imagine the first one is the worst but I've only had one breakup. It does get better but it took me literally months to go a day without thinking about her, and while I don't let it drag me down anymore in daily life, I feel the breakup did irreparable damage to me on what I expect from a relationship. Filling the days with activity does really help getting your minds off, myself I picked up sports which helped turning my mind to other things. In general the first reply is absolutely correct in his analysis. Time and dating others do heal things at least somewhat. We were also together for 4 months when we were 21, I'm 24 now so I have to say it's kinda stupid to still mope about this 3 years later about such a short relationship. It's not something I think about on a daily basis but still more often than I'm willing to admit. I'm not a big relationship person, and this is the first and only girl I've known that I actually was able to imagine living my rest of the life with. I've dated a few girls before and after this but it never felt right, and usually it was me who ended things because I didn't want a long term relationship with them. Reason why I still haven't recovered is that things were simply too perfect, she's genuinely one of the most gorgeous girls I have ever seen in my life. When I saw this blonde I knew I just had to get to know her, when we got to know eachother I found out we shared music taste, hobbies and in general had the same world view. She was crazy smart, studied something real prestigious and was very much a nepo baby but you could never tell and was incredibly humble. We have the same ethnicity which means my family would have absolutely adored her if they'd get to meet her. Appearance wise she was just in that sweet spot where she was fat enough to satisfy me sexually, but still look very much conventionally attractive. I know the descriptions sound dreamy, but as an usually cynical person when I'm trying to be absolute nitpicky and find things I didn't like about her as a way to try to cope with the breakup the biggest issues I could find about her was that her breasts were a bit on the smaller side and she had one ugly tattoo on her wrist she regretted. So my biggest complaints about her were absolute non-issues. Never had a fight or major disagreement. I have no doubt I will eventually find someone, I'm sure everyone in this thread who is single will eventually do that, but at the same time I have to be realistic and realise that the chances of finding a person that I'm this compatible with is very slim. I know the ideal partner doesn't have to be a female clone of yourself to have a good relationship, but after meeting x amount of women who's main interests is watching reality shows and tiktok it brought me so much joy being able to discuss 70's british rock album covers, old cars and politics with a genuinely intelligent person. Thanks to OP for opening up about his situation, and allowing others to write their experiences. I have briefly touched upon this topic on this chan but it felt good writing down the entire story. I consider myself rather satisfied with life but the aspect of relationships have been a touchy subject since in my mind I have already experienced absolute peak, and I'm deathly afraid I'll end up with someone I'm not compatible with.

>>86480 That is true, I did gain experience. And yeah Covid did mess up a lot of stuff for a bunch of folks, it sucks because we didn’t really get to interact with people and we were stuck at home. And that’s okay if you’re not great with people, lots of people aren’t good with others. I think you’ll do great in uni, and if things don’t go so well, don’t give up. It won’t be the end of the world, you gotta keep trying and pushing to the best of your ability. I believe in you.

>>86503 Your story touches my heart deeply, I heavily relate to this, it’s almost like we’re in the same boat. Even though we don’t know each other. It felt like death of a loved one, bad thoughts, and more. I’m still working on forgetting her and recovering, even though she said she doesn’t want me to forget her and keep the stuff she gave and made for me. She was perfect and an angel. Even your short description sounded like the one I lost. She moved on so so fast like two weeks later, and then kept talking to a lot of other guys too. We were in deep love but I felt like I was just another rebound for her after our break up. I don’t know if I’ll ever find love again to be truthful, it felt like luck that someone found me attractive, even though I’m extremely skinny and only 103 pounds. Which is kind of concerning for my health but I’ve always been like this and i don’t feel sick so I guess it’s okay. But thank you for sharing your story, it has touched me very very much. I wish nothing but the best for you, and to everyone else here too

>>86503 Oh man... That's a rough one. I mean, you will %100 find a girl you love and loves you back that's like... %95 as perfect as a girl like that. But you really don't too many girls like that. Could easily go your whole life never even meeting a single one, let alone one that likes you back.

I'm slowly coming to accept that I am legitimately retarded and this fetish is one of the signs

>>86515 You're probably just autistic bro. And not the level 3 kind... So not literally actually retarded. If you're level 2, that can be tough but it can turn out ok for some. Level 1 is kinda tight cuz these types turn into engineers and artists and people who run train clubs and shit

>>86521 >>86515 Could be autistic, could be not but that’s okay, something like that shouldn’t bring you down, you’re still a good and functional human being at the end of the day. Almost everyone in this world has a fetish or some kind of thing they’re into. As long as you don’t let it corrupt your mind fully you can still be okay and well. To me, you gotta be stronger than it and not let it get to you too much, because it can potentially ruin a lot of things in life. Again, don’t beat yourself up because of some fetish when people around you got something too. You can still strive to be the person you want to be and succeed in life and find the things that truly make you happy.

What’s up brother! Thanks for opening up the floor with your authenticity. Recently been thinking about this fetish for these women. It got me thinking whether I want to go through with my IRL squashing session with Spanx or not

>>86421 It's truly bizarre. When I was in HS, I used to angst over not finding my thin classmates attractive, but within the last two years it's like something flipped in my brain (I might attribute it to when I was heavy into psychedelics), and now I find a huge spectrum of bodies attracted. The one caveat is that they need to have a womanly shape still: I'm not attracted to prepubescent looking or immobile girls. I'd say my attraction begins at Ella Balinska (picrel; my gf looks like her), and ends at Boberry

>>86534 That does sound like fun and I do hope you have fun with your session, but while I am not an expert in this department, maybe trying both could work. That way you can determine what you like more between the two of the options, a test run could also maybe help you determine what you’d like to do more. I do hope you have a good time

I have made peace with my own desires and have decided to find healthier outlets to express said desires rather than seeking porn or lurking on here. Such are writing and art. I even hope to bring feedist ideas into writing and art in a wholesome manner if that exists. I have decided to stop shaming myself for these desires and move to have peace in my life.

Kisame here, my life is full of anxiety and depression. I now own a car and have to pay it down. My life is boring at the moment as I have cut my brand of artworks to live as a normal life. I plan on going in vacation soon with no more politics or entertainment dictating my life. The commute is comfy thru the marsh. I am baffled as to why I am still talked about in Pregchan. I am now gaming and writing in my own schedule. I might be medicated soon so this might be the last time I visit this site

>>86488 That has less to do with age and more to do with Americans electing Cobra Commander for president. Still processing the Donald may not live and his son Jr will be president. RFK being the only normies is mind boggling. The only upside I can see are the Daily Wire going bankrupt. Autism isn't a thing in the states

So far Cross Crescent's servers are infested with fem Kisames worse than the original. I am aware of being a lolcow but by attorney and shrink said to continue being a normies. The internet is censored even though Trump is reduced to community colleges. Can't wait till his 90s year old man gets sent to Suffolk Community for whatever GOP. I will be roaming the streets, hopefully with a Kisame Jr. Still amazed I got a Honda Civic

>>86536 She sounds like a wonderful girl, I hope you two will have a happy life together

>>86539 I’m glad you have been able to find healthier outlets to these things, writing and art is a lovely way to express many things that are inside of us all, continue to live your life in peace my friend

>>86540 I don’t know exactly what a kisame is, but I am very sorry to hear that your life is full of anxiety and depression, you must have gone through a lot in your life so far and I hope things will be able to turn around for you. This upcoming vacation of yours does sound very exciting and I hope it does go well for you, you deserve it! And gaming and writing too do sound very enjoyable and it’s good you’ve got a schedule going while also having to get the things you need done like the car. Even if you get medicated and this could be the last time you’re ever here or not, I wish you nothing but the best of luck for you out there, and I hope things go well for you

>>86552 She's amazing. I'm Autistic yet mask so it's hard for me to find people I can fully be myself around, but I've never once felt like I was playing a character for her.

>>86573 I feel you brother, I feel you. I am so happy that you can be you with her. It’s not easy being around people sometimes, but when you find someone who accepts you for you and all the things that come with you, it can feel amazing not having to feel like you’re not playing a character around them

My gf of 6 years is coming off the pill, she’s gained over 100lb since we met. She did used to be skinny tho. She’s around 250 at the moment. I’m hoping this is another part of life that will make her fatter but I’m worried it could be the opposite. She hasn’t had periods in years so she will start getting them again now. The odd few times she did she used to go thru a hungry faze. So I’m hoping regular periods will bring that back and make her gain more. Feel like I’m on a 50 50 coin flip

>>86600 Fatter or not, continue to love her with all your heart. 6 years of a relationship is a long time and you two sound very happy together. And if she wants to get bigger, then let her, and if she wants to lose weight, let her. Both of you should be able to be happy and healthy and comfortable with each other and also respecting boundaries. Not saying that you don’t but I’m just saying in general. You have a wonderful thing going, and I hope you keep that wonderful thing going my friend. I hope for nothing but the best for the both of you.

Ok y'all. I'm calling it. This godfather kid is the most wholesome user on this whole site.

(>>86553,>>86555) quite funny to see Corleone, all those freaks into fat girls that are sharing the same braincell: it feels like Vinny making the jokes! Oh wait yes, you asked about my life .. ya know, gay people trying to kidnap and rape you, the usual fucking american retardment: same gabaghoul!

>>86683 Agreed.

>>86400 The hate is legit, don’t need to explain.

>>86710 Indeed it is legit, I can tell the hate from the folks aren’t staged. Still is a shame to see so much hate, but that’s just how some people are.

>>86686 And why would people try to kidnap you? That sounds awful you’ve been dealing with kidnapping and rape situations. Those are awful things to go through, and hundreds of people sadly fall victim to such things everyday. I do hope you are safe at the moment and continue to be safe, it definitely sounds like you need a break of sorts. Some time to yourself might be able to help you out a little. Stay safe please.

Good morning everyone, I hope you all have or is having a great day, afternoon, evening, and night

>>86503 I feel your pain as well. I have been madly in love with a girl I was dating a long time ago. It was instant chemistry from my side, and although we kissed on our 2nd date, she started giving mixed signals thereafter. She stopped dating, but then just when I was about to come to terms that we were no longer dating, she reached out again, we started dating again. This repeated a few times, so it were multiple break-ups with the same girl. And although we never were officially in a relationship, it was incredibly difficult for me because I was so in love with her. In hindsight, I think exactly that was the problem: I was so in love that I was already moving at 100 km/h before she had a chance to jump aboard. What is important is to learn not to expect the same again thereafter. I have not experienced that instant, over the moon falling in love anymore thereafter, and that is ok. My heart was 100% in with her, but when I look at it objectively now, I am not sure if she was the right one. There is always a combination of heart and reason, and although romantically she was 100% what I wanted, when I think about it with my head I am not sure if our lives would have been compatible. When I met my now wife, I was insecure at the beginning, because I didn't have this head over heels feeling that I had with the other girl. My head said yes, because she was ticking so many boxes, but my heart didn't feel like that. I had to step over that feeling and let me guide a bit more by my head and let the heart catch up. And although the heart did catch up a bit, it never got to the same feelign as with the other girl, but I still wouldn't trae and don't regret my decision.

>>86521 I find it very funny that it's likely most of us are autstic (non-autistic people may well be into fat women, but posting about it? Feedism? Hm...), and yet so many of us hate autists. Lotta self-hatred on this site. Sad!

>>86800 I firmly believe this is a trauma response.

>>86800 They don't hate autism, they just hate US because we're into fat women: trust me, it's all fucking retarded business to sell their stupid Skinny drug! LEAVE THE WOMEN BE FAT, stop with this marketing bullshit of being PERFECT!!

>>86823 > I firmly believe this is a trauma response. Yeah. that’s true.i didn’t really like fat women till i got raped by normie women a few times freshman year while learning how to drink.

I'm going through something pretty fucking awful right now. My long term relationship is in serious trouble while we are about to move in together. Every time that we're apart for a couple of weeks, we argue significantly more (we live a couple of hours apart and I work fulltime so we can't always meet). But we just have these fucking arguments all the time. Ever since she had to stop working due to insane stress from her untreated and undiagnosed adhd and autism, our relationship has gone down hill significantly. I believe she's taking it out on me.I had advised her way before she burned out that she should get diagnosed and get therapy and treatment for it, but she refused. Now I support her and have for almost 1.5 years helped her with all the stress and bullshit she slung my way. And yet it feels like she takes me for granted and like she takes every opportunity to put me down. Example: I have a family member in the hospital with cancer and worked for 12h that day, she wants to play a videogame with me. I say that I'll be available very late at night, as I need some time for myself. She agrees. I then message her after midnight (she's a nightowl) to play, but that I prefer another game that we played a lot before together, since I just don't find her game of choice that appealing. She is so annoyed by those two things that she does not want to play with me anymore that night, despite me and her both being available for several hours from that point in time. Absolute insanity, and she refuses to acknowledge that this is fucked up. "You're not making an attempt to understand me!" -[> yeah no shit, what you're saying is absolute dogshit retarded garbage. Fuck man.... And on top of that, she frequently fucking cancelled game meetings like that with me, or complained about games I wanted to play or said she preferred other ones. And I always respected that, and she always told me that I shouldn't expect things from her when I used to give her shit about cancelling. And I learned that and applied that. And now she does it herself and does not fucking realise she's doing it herself dialed up to 11. I've done SO fucking much for her, and she treats like absolute garbage. I was so excited to move in with her, and she says she wants to be excited but cannot, since that's change and gives her autistic side a lot of stress. I understand, but holy shit can you not muster any excitement regardless? Yesterday I told her that shit like this all makes me build resentment towards her and that it starts to overcloud my love for her. She said that she felt the same way. Just as she started to gain for me... It may stem in part from that... She felt very insecure about her skinny self, knowing that I prefer bbw's.I already told her that I love her at any size, and she does trust that according to herself, but still she might have some resentment towards me for that somehow. I just don't know what to do, we have 4+ years together and we're at the end of our 20s now. I do not want to lose what we had, but I cannot stay in what we currently have. Something has to change.

>>86953 Get out. Now.

>>86953 This certainly is quite a big problem I will admit, you did a lot for her and yet she treats you like garbage. And the fact she got annoyed over the fact you wanted to play something else and didn’t want to play with you that night sounds very petty. I know you said you don’t want to lose what you have, but in my honest opinion, I don’t think it’s healthy to stay in that relationship if things are continuing to get worse, you deserve to be treated nicely, not like garbage. I’m not going to force you to leave her if you don’t to, but I think it would be for the best if you both went your separate ways. I’m very sorry things haven’t been going well for you friend, I just hope things will get better for you and that you’ll be treated with respect and kindness.

>>86953 >>86954 >Get out. Now. ^ listen to this guy.

>>86823 Incredibly plausible. >>86920 I'm talking about posters here hating on autists/autism though. >>86953 Man, I ended a seven-year relationship in my late twenties. It turned out to be an excellent decision, dating in my thirties has been cool (people tend more to know what they're about and to have dealt with some of their shit) and my current girlfriend is amazing.

I’m genuinely pissed at my wife. She spent years complaining about her weight, so I made a few jokes here and there to flirt with her. Apparently it didn’t work too well. Now she’s lost a ton of weight, started dressing better, gets attention everywhere we go, and suddenly acts way more confident. The worst part is she even stopped wafflestomping in the shower and acts like she’s too good for it now. I liked her better before all this. Anyone else have a wife who took fun little fat jokes way too far?

Still am autistic and taking dietary supplements from CVS. I have my mind together and want a quiet life and few friends. I don't believe I will be making pregnancy fetishism art anymore it's wasteful. Still wonder if Farang Ding Dong will go bust or the guy revealing himself? Can't imagine him living a decade more

Since we're on bbw Chan after all, was your ex fat?

>>87110 If you’re talking to me, then yes. she was kinda fat and had some very broad shoulders too, but she was really nice

>>86953 Getting mad over nothing and treating you like garbage sounds like typical bpd behaviour. Not sure it can co-exist with adhd/autism though. But bpd behaviour is a giant red flag if they are in denial about it (I speak from experience).

Hope everyone is doing okay, sorry that I haven’t checked up on you all in awhile, just been trying to live life a bit

>>87110 one of them was fat (as idk she weighs around 200-220 lbs i believe,im talking for eu standarts ofc) but hella toxic probably correlated to her weight glad i broke up with her,my new gf is slimmer then her(180 lbs max,but im not planning on to fatten her up,in fact i feel weird about jacking off to fat porn lately) but her mental health is also better then the last one,so yeah,its a win win situation for me

(>>86959, >>87133) Honestly talking, if you're into fat women you will expect every type of pitty bullshit .. not because they're fat, but nowadays thanks to "woke empowerment and toxic feminism" THERE IS this kind of behaviour were the partner (only because the different size) is allowed to treat you like a shit, using you for money, to clean her pussy and other parts of the body .. I mean as long it's for arousing, flirting and having fun is good: but I fucking hate the narrative about being an INDEPENDENT WOMAN only for sex and abuse, that's like the worst and horrible to be trapped in a relationship where you just close your mouth and let everything happen, drowing you to madness! A clear example recently is Jae: blaming ALL society and being invited to these "stupid podcasts" where you talk, because your family "ruined your body" with food that MEANS Fat women are into porn addiction and BDSM ... noo Jae, it's you because YOU LIKE THAT!! Jae also having kids and blaming the ex-relationship for abuse, when he was like half of her size, like she's taller and bigger than him: come on, we know you're into male and cock humiliation!! We never wanted perfect women, but PLEASE stop blaming others because you're a lazy model and you want money on your stupid OF: grow the fuck up, Miss INDEPENDENCY!!

>>87551 Also yea there are bunch of lunatics and psychos HERE supporting this toxic behaviour/relationship (business crypto motherfuckers), like we are "FORCED" to pay every stupid model out there: NO, if she's fucking retarded!

>>87560 Fuck off R9K!

(>>87551, >>87560) R9K prevented my ass to get rid of this motherfucking planet!

I am in such a weird scenario atm I need some advice, I've been dating this girl for like 3 years, she's fully into feederism and she's put on like 40lbs in that time, btw I'm 18 rn and she's 19, anyway we went on a break recently and in that time I was gaming and I started talking to this other girl, who I just thought fuck it with and told her about my kinks for this sort of thing. Now she's saying she's down to experiment with it and give it a go, trying to gain weight or whatever. She's alot slimmer than my current girlfriend, current is 5'7 190lbs, online is like 5'7 120lbs. I was already going through a rough patch with my gf, do I end it with her to try with the new one or what? Also I promise on everything this is dead ass lowkirkenuinly happening to me, cause I know some of you won't believe I managed to get two women on board with this weird ass shit.

>>87584 Dude, you're a gigantic faggot holy hell lmao

>>87584 You should go for the girl that you are most compatible with, on all fronts. Feedism can be part of that, but should not be the only aspect. Having said that, from a purely feedism perspective, I would go with the current gf: she is already chubby,you mention she is fully in it and has gained already 40 lbs. Therefore she certainly has the potential already. You're 18, so I suppose you are not living together yet. Once you live together for sure it is going to be easy to add some more relationship weight to that and even more when you would get married etc. The online girl is really skinny, so far all you know she may have a crazy metabolism and have difficulties gaining, or maybe she will not like it when she starts, or her idea of gaining is only 10 lbs or so. No guarantee of success. Of course, it is different if the relation with your current gf is already at a dead end. But if not, I would go with her.

I’ve (34M) been seeing someone (32F) for about 3-4 months. This is a long distance thing which works out for me but only for the moment as my career is getting to a point where I’ll have some decent financial stability and be closer to 6 figures. At that point I will want to get closer to this person. This wasn’t already super feasible though as she has $150k in student loans she wants to work through and things are kind of up in the air on her end in that regard. My lease ends in just short of a year and she was living about 3-4 hours away. This was fine for a short time because she also was willing to get hotels and whatnot the three times she’s visited me which I do appreciate and see the value in her doing. I have visited her twice already as well. I just got my CCNA and I’m currently studying for my AZ-104 for cloud engineering and my resume is good and I just need to apply for more jobs right now. I have a job and I work full time but I could get a lot better. Needless to say, my life is about to launch in a big way. She is: Funny Pretty (7/10, if she was thinner and grew her hair out a bit maybe an 8) Charming Good spirited Smart A good listener Spiritual Loyal Kinda hot not super duper but gets the job done, she’s kinda chubby rn but nothing too crazy, she does put forth an effort in taking hot pics for me and does vore RP decently well though Friendly Even tempered And as time has gone on I’ve been wanting to get closer to her and spend more time together as she is extremely romantic and I like that and want to give that a try. She just got a DUI. She will Maybe lose her nursing license Lose her current job Already totaled her car So I’m going to see her less for the foreseeable future. It was already starting to get difficult as we started to get closer. I hadn’t seen her in several weeks and hadn’t had sex in like a month or so it seemed. She’s a really nice girl. Dating is fucking horrible. The apps are dogshit. Meeting people just doesn’t happen, my town is a major city but finding wife material is a laughable Sisyphean endeavor. Anyone remotely worth my time doesn’t live in my city. It makes me sad to think that I should have to hold out for this. It was worth it pre-DUI and kind of romantic in a way to have longing for someone but now that shine is gone and what was something I would pine for is now another object of stress and something I just have to deal with on the side. It’s shitty now and I just feel really like blindsided by it. My mom tells me to stick it out but my mom really doesn’t know shit about relationships. Also for as much as I like my girlfriend she talks a lot which is typically a good thing that I like but I mean like she doesn’t shut up. And though she’s pretty she doesn’t really super do it for me. I’m not like obsessed with her. Am I in love with her? No Do I love her? She’s a sweetheart and maybe I could if we got closer but this is pulling us further apart. I mean there’s a lot to love and it’s a little hard to say but like idk, the last time I went to see her it was dinner with her, her sister, her sisters boyfriend. I just sat there as her and her sister yapped the whole time. To make matters worse, as we were leaving I saw her sisters body and big swollen hanging belly and pretty big ass…. Really bummed me out tbh I’m getting older sure but like the thought that I should really fight hard and waste like 6m to a year for something I’m not super into because I’m getting older just doesn’t sit right with me. It’s a very depressing thought. I’m 5’9”, in shape not washboard abs but thin in the hot way, industrial/gothy style but like cool, heavily tattooed, doing not great but not terrible and about to be doing well and buying a house in the next year or so, I think I’m a really cool guy in terms of what I bring to the table in lived experiences I’ve been on tour and signed to a record label, most people seem to like me, I have friends, I’m interesting, I am romantic, I’m generous in the sack and out of the sack too, I would say I’m like a 6/10 as a guy which my personality makes up for the rest of the way kinda. Yeah the hairline is receding a bit and I have some grays coming in but I’m not like some hideous piece of shit who can’t pull women. Even if I was I’d rather be alone. My last LTR I stuck around way longer than I should have and it was a disaster. I don’t want to make the same mistake twice. I’m afraid of wasting time. To be fair, I hesitate to throw this relationship away because she is very special but she really done fucked herself right now. Also despite her being special I don’t feel like… the spark. I don’t feel like excitement or butterflies and I know as you get older that shit goes away but like yeah I don’t feel even like stoked to hear from her or anything. Sometimes a little bit like hardly at all but it was a lot better before the DUI. Thoughts?

>>86372 Who do I ask to add ban reasons and warnings? I get posts taken down and myself banned so often literally everywhere it'd be nice to know why.

I've been married for 10 years to an SSBBW but her weight is now being a problem. I still find her hot as fuck, but I want to travel, have kids. She tried ozempic but came off it after getting ill and every time I come home from work there are cakes, cookies, chips etc. Thinking about getting a divorce.

>>88409 Damn, I want to hear more. There's never enough discussion about being that size 10+ years on, it's always when they're huge but still in their 20s living on borrowed time

Been living with my girlfriend for just about a year now but thinking about breaking up. Her depression and sudden mood swings are just too much and I often feel like there’s nothing I can do to keep her happy. She takes fairly good care of herself, is on antidepressants, sees a therapist, but frankly I don’t know if any of that makes a difference lately. I’m just tired of being dragged down in it with her even though I love the person she is on her good days.

>>88438 Honest question: Have you tried talking to her about your feelings? Just dropping the breakup onto her is not going to do y'all any good, I fear.

>>88439 You are absolutely correct and I should state that it’s not my intent to drop it on her without warning. Admittedly I have been struggling with telling her how I feel lately for fear of making her depression worse. Working with my therapist on that but it’s been a slow process.

>>88441 Honestly I don't think there's an ideal way to break the news to her, but if I were you I'd not lead with negativity or even the threat of leaving her, but rather have an open and honest conversation about her feelings in general. Like, idk "How your depression been lately?" to ultimately lead to her recording her thoughts about the mood swings and you twerking her that you don't know for how much longer you can handle those etc. Trying to establish common grounds and not devolving into the typical you vs me bullshit, but rather y'all realizing some stuff together and working to together though the depression (I a meaningfully different/improved was from whatever y'all being doing until now...)

>>88441 If you want a very fat partner, some mental health changes are part of the deal. Dunno if it's worth it for you, but perfect mental stability doesn't lead to a hundred plus pounds of extra fat. Navigating some bullshit is part of the package.

>>86400 Yes. We had a marine arrtty guy who is a violent, racist bpd patient who harasses people on the site for being poor, and says they're beneath him.

>>88409 Stay with her lad.

>>88441 You not from Ohio are you? Not a joke I just wanted to know for my own reasons

>>86953 Ask her to marry you

>>86683 Lol yes

>>87551 Dude you sound like a bpd patient. Jae iis an abuse victim with bipolar. She is being bullied by horny entitled creeps when she left the scene.

I cannot read, write, or even create art my existence is not of daydream. I enter summer in the sense of malady as I need assistance with the bills and withdrew from society. I am watching the golf games with my job reducing my pay to roughly three days. I watched Masters of the Universe and it's a long droll film. I ate the fried apple pie from McDonald's and miss being able to cook. I plan on going back to watching movies.