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To be honest, speaking of gayness, some of my favorite things to write in these stories are just the simple scenes of intimacy between Shinji and Kaworu. Kaworu holding Shinji's hand, stroking him, petting him, kissing him, fondling his breasts, stroking his belly, while Shinji feels pleasure and opens his mouth to be kissed.
It's certainly not as explicit as gay sex or Shinji's bowels churning away, but I love the moments because they're steady, successive underscorings of Shinji's transformation. He's become SO fat and SO gay that it's just an ordinary fact of life, at this point, for him to have large fat parts of him to touch, or for him to kiss another man. The ordinariness of such scenes is a great source of perversion, because in the 'old' Shinji they wouldn't have been ordinary at all. He's been utterly transformed.