I’ve known I was attracted to fat for as long as I can remember. Cartoon episodes where they got fat used to give me a funny feeling in my stomach and I realised as an adult that it was some form of juvenile arousal. I visited the worlds heaviest man page in Guinness world records more than I can count. I would always try and catch glimpses of big big people, which wasn’t often. Into my teens I was really into and obsessed with pregnancy but it was just because they got bigger. I’d pay for my data just so I could download more videos, but I wasn’t masturbating to them until I was 15.
I’ve always been bigger myself but was always fit and active until I was 21, which is when I accepted I was a feedee and that it can’t go away no matter how much I wanted it to. I post on tumblr exclusively and have gone up and down over the last 5 years, but ultimately have gained ~20kg.
I don’t know if there was something that triggered it in childhood. I just know it’s been with me as long as I can remember. My mum was fat and I saw her naked a lot growing up (not in a weird way) so I don’t know if that relates to it at all.