So after being straight up called out by a family friend on my preference for fat women a couple of days ago I feel like it's time to list some notable events and how much people in my life might have been able to figure out.
Quick background info on me: I'm a 23 yo male (5ft 8, 135lbs) socially awkward and never had any romantic relationships happen. 3 years ago after having finished school I decided to pick up art/drawing as a hobby which I have grown quite fond of. So as some of you might be able to guess by now this comes with my love of fat women and drawing human bldeis resulted in many drawings/sketches of chubby/fat women. Turns out that despite being very bad at art class in school, my first drawings didn't suck as much as I would have though and thus my parents started to catch on. Seeing how I had not much other interests/hobbies going for me I was asked to show my artistic creations to family and friends quite often.
This then lead to a number of weird situations which I will outline in the following:
1. My mom
This was right at the start of my drawing hobby as I recall just having bought some professional grade colored pencils. I was sitting peacefully at my desk making a colored pencil drawing of a fat/chubby girl in black underwear (I can't recall her plus size modeling Instagram or her name for the life of me).
This was also the first my mum had ever seen of my new hobby (which she didn't even know I had started). So there goes me keeping my hobby a secret but worse me keeping my preference for fat women secret. This then started my mum's interest in my artistic creations going forward and lead some surface level questions and comments i.e. "Do you find women like this attractive", "This girl is way to fat for her young age. (imagine if she were to gain some after marriage...). (I believe this was said after me looking at a reference picture of @nerdycurvyandthriving on IG in underwear, to do a drawing of later (which never happened))" which I more or less brushed off.
2. Visiting family in Poland
One time I was staying over at my grandfather's house in Poland to visit him and my aunt and her husband. My mom being my mom wanted to show off my newly discovered artistic talent made me show them some of my drawings. After getting bored with nothing to do, I started doing a large amount of chubby fat girl 5-10min sketches while over there. My hyper fixation with the fat female body at that time didn't go unnoticed. This resulted in my mom asking why I only drew larger ladies, to which I made up the lie that soft flowy lines on the body where easier to draw (looking back at these sketches I was once proud of I also believe that the fatness hid some major anatomical and proportional mistakes). My aunt's husband straight up asked me "Do you like women like this?" to which I gave a cautious reply implying that he was infact right. He then proceeded to tell me something along the lines of "You will have a women like this someday then". Which I find was a releaving end to this more than awkward exchange.
My aunt just made some remark like "Why did you draw them all with (fat/chubby) legs like mine".
3. My grandma (from my father's German side of the family)
This part part of the family only lives around 1 hour away so said grandma comes to visit far more often compared to my polish relatives who live a 7 hour drive away. Up to the last exchange I'm about to tell, she was always very supportive of my art and asked me to pursue this hobby further (like job wise even).
This brings me right to the latest visit for a family get together/BBQ at my parents place. As she was about to leave I decided to show her some of my new artwork (both traditional (urban sketching with watercolors) and digital). Upon opening my mega cloud drive she was greeted by paintings (Pics related) of four chubby/fat women back to back. Also upon trying to switch the folder I messed up making her the only person to ever see my painting of Japanese female sumo wrestler Miki Satoyama, which I had purposely put in a another folder as I deemed this to revealing of my true likes. Then resulted into her saying "Anon, will bring back a chubby (the German euphemism she used can also refer to fat women) home." To my big releave no one else heard this comment. My grandpa and my other aunt and uncles from that side of the family thankfully never made any comments in that direction.
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