Cartoons, yeah: sorry guys dont call me weirdo but I remember having my first boner with 4 years old reading a cartoon book of ariel - la sirenita. Her enemy was called ursula, a morbidly obese octopus. She was huge, a true giantess octopus that could destroy whatever she wanted. I was mesmerized from her hugeness. Ursula was big and fat as fuck, and if she wanted, she had enough power to conquer the ocean and overpower and destroy ariel, the cute skinny princess. This is where my love for ssbbws and smothering/squashing came from I guess. Or maybe I born with it. However, it wasn't until highschool (12yrs old)), where I began to feel sexually atracted by the fat classmate. She probably weight around 100 kg with 12 y old. I remember that as a something super cute, because I always took any opportunity of being close to her, sitting next to her in class, or sitting with her in the bus when we went to any excursion. 2 years later, it was better, with 14-15 I had a class mate, Im sure she was about 100 kg, with an enormous ass, legs and hips. This is where things got hotter as we were teenagers. Remember being watching the typical film in a class, with all lights closed, and she and me in the back of the class, with she touching my boner, or sitting on my lap. We were just teasing but I remember with affection, bc this is where I realized what I like.
Then, I lost my vrgnty with a bbw with 17, and had my first ssbbw with 21. I had sex with cute skinny ones too, but I guess I'll be into fat forever. I won't let myself being with a cute skinny wife, kids, etc, and being mesmerized with a boner everytime I see an obese woman.