>>136572
No, it’s weird. And the body positivity movement is also kinda lame, like sure nobody should hate themselves and their bodies but like the vast majority of men do not like big fat women and thinking you can just socialize all bodies into being equally attractive isn’t reality.
Idk, I’m at a really weird point in my relationship with this. For a long time I really hated myself for being into this stuff, beyond just being a mild autist and being an awkward lonely kid. But over the years I’ve improved a lot, have close friends, and come to the realization that self hatred has no purpose. I’ve still never had a relationship, for more reasons than just this but it’s a factor. I still don’t think I’d ever tell anyone, unless I married the exact right person.
As for where it comes from, who knows. I can’t really blame early porn exposure as even before I had any idea what sex was I had a fixation on inflation in cartoons and obv Willy wonka (not into blueberry stuff funny enough), it just turned into a sexual thing as I got older. Perhaps access to YouTube and irl inflation content solidified it, and I’ve definitely come around on the idea that constant porn/masturbation is not good for you and the narrative of “everyone jacks off all the time and it’s good actually” I heard all the time growing up was extremely misleading and harmful.
On the biological note, how many lefties are out there? I’m left handed, and I’ve read that despite being only 10% of the population we’re typically over represented in the, uh, “mentally diverse” communities. Autists, trans, schizos, people with, fetishes, highly creative people, etc are a lot more likely to be left handed when compared to the general population. There seems to be a little bit of a link between handedness and how your brain works.